skinnychris

I had a feeling last week it was over but I wanted to give it one more week before I was sure.  Yup, with todays weigh in it proved the 6 weeks of hell are OVER!  I lost 2.4 last week! Now thats what I’m talking about baby!

 This means I am only 11.4 pounds away from goal.  Would someone pinch me?  How can *I* be only 11.4 pounds away from reaching what has been unreachable for me for years?  This weight has been more than just physical weight to me, it has been emotional baggage that I wont miss.  I am finally starting to accept I am *thin* again.  Skinny Chris?  No, not quite.  But this year for my girlie checkup my doctor cant call me fat. Yes, last December my doc called me fat to my face. This year will be my last year to use her.  But I plan on seeing her one more time just so I can see the look on her face when she sees me.  And I will be reminding her of what she said to me last year.  And I will dare her to pull out her BMI calculator and say something.  Because in 11.4 pounds I will be in the healthy range.  What is she gonna say then??

 I see things so different now.  I, for the first time in a very long time care about myself again.  I am wearing my makeup like I used too. In the past few years I wore just enough to make myself look presentable.  Now I want to look GOOOOOD!  I feel myself holding my head up a little higher and swhoosing my hair around a little more.  I like hearing folks tell me I look good when I havent seen them in a long time and they havent seen the new-old me. 

I *can* do this.  I will do this.  Will it be over in 11.4 pounds?  Nope, not even close. If anything, the real fight starts then.  But ya know what?  I will win this.  I know I am strong,  I am a good person and this will not defeat me.