skinnychris

Well guys, I appreciate all the comments and support but the devil won.  I was doing sooooo good too!  But at the last minute we had family show up and blew up my entire night.  Tom’s 12 year old nephew killed his first buck last night, an 8 point and they needed to use our barn to clean it in.  And since it was his first alot of the family showed up to take pictures and such.  And since most everyone had been in the woods all day, hunger was almost a bigger topic than the deer.  So to be the hostess with the mostess (is that really a word?) I came in and fixed frozen (= fattening) pizzas along with the French onion dip.  And there was beer in the mix too.

So I went to bed last night with a sick belly and woke up with an even sicker one.  And I started off really good today and lasted all day long.  But tonight I broke into another bottle of eggnog and ate some cookies.  And what caused that was a case of the blues.  I found out my family may not get to come home for Christmas.  All my planning blown, just like that.  So I put in a Christmas episode of Home Improvement, drank a glass of nog and ate Almond Snowflake cookies. 

By the time I ate supper  I really didnt even want it. Which just upset me even more because I had filled up on junk.

So I wont make goal this week and I know I wont make it next week.  Starting Friday of this week starts an entire week of too much eating.  Friday night we have our annual Thanksgiving potluck with our group of friends.  Saturday night we have a bonfire cookout with all of Tom’s family.  Then Sunday is their actual Thanksgiving.  Then the following Wednesday will be our Thanksgiving breakfast potluck at work and the Thanksgiving is the next day. 

My stomach hurts just thinking about it.  I am mad that I cant…no let me say, wont get these last 2 pounds off.  I cant seem to grasp the concept of staying on track.  For some reason I am not taking these 2 pounds seriously.  They are only 2 pounds that wont change my pant size but they are preventing me from goal.  And I dont want to turn these 2 into 4 or even 6.  Where has my motivation gone too?  Is it just this time of year?  Do I have a case of burnout?  I wonder if I have pushed myself too hard this year and thats why I am struggling now?

I know come Jan 2nd I can get back on track, I’m just not so sure about staying on thru the holidays.  Especially if my family does get to come home for 10 days. 

Blogger “The new deal”  posted last night she needs her structured work week too to stay on track.  I am exactly the same way.  I wouldnt dare think about splurging during the week.  And exercise just comes naturally then.  But with the holidays coming up and all the additional things going on in my life right now, I just cant stay on track over the weekends.  I guess I need to think about trying to maintain.  I just dont know what else to do.  I’m going to bed an upset girl tonight.

And to top it all off, I’ve got to have more dental work done Tuesday.  I am not happy about this at all because my dentist has messed up 2 of my teeth and I cannot chew on them.  So I’ve got to go back under and have them worked on again.  While I am stressing over this and dreading it, maybe it will prevent me from eating for a few days and take off this damage I have once again created.