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But all I can do, is all I can do
But I keep on tryin
And all I can be, is all I can be
And I keep on tryin
There’s always a mountain in front of me
Seems I’m always climbing, and stumbling, and falling, and climbing,
But I keep on tryin.

“I’m Tryin” Trace Adkins

I am still struggling.  It was a better day today and hopefully tomorrow will be even better.  But I know I cant stop trying if I want to win.  I have been doing alot of thinking and soul searching and mainly, I have been reminding myself I am only human and not perfect.  And I’ve got to stop making myself think this dieting thing has to be perfect 100% of the time.  I was suppose to be happy when I hit goal but instead all I have done is try to drive myself insane to get there.

So today I didnt spend every waking moment thinking about it.  Ok, I still stressed over it more than I should have but I decided its the holidays and I am gonna have mountains to climb.  And that I am gonna trip, there is no way to prevent it unless I have my jaw wired shut.  This next week alone is gonna be one big struggle up a steep mountain side.  But I have to keep trying.

I managed to stay completely on track today.  No exercise but I didnt eat over my points.  Not to say I didnt want to and thought seriously about it.  But I didnt give in.  My scales are way up and I am sure they still will be at weigh in tomorrow.  But I’m gonna be ok with it because I have to be.  I know why they are up so I cant stand in my meeting and scratch my head and cry because they are being so unfair.  I over ate and now I have to face it.  I can either stop this or I can continue like I am and watch the scales go up even more.

I am trying to get a plan together for this weekend.  There are just so many food opportunities that will be ahead of me over the next week.  Some like Thanksgiving where I know I am gonna eat what I want.  And then others like the bonfire Saturday night where I can eat before I go and then politely say no when offered any of that fire side food.

But the biggest thing I have figured out is that for now, I’ve got to take this one day and one meal at a time.  To keep it all in check and atleast maintain.  I do not want to continue gaining. 

And keep on tryin