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Happy New Year’s Eve buddies!!  I hope you have a really good last day of 2008!!

In all 2008 has been a good year.  Only a few bad times to recall, May when we almost lost my dad and then the 1st of this month losing my grandfather. But I will look back on this year with fond memories and be thankful most for them.

I started WW’s on Jan 10th with only a 20-30 pound weight loss in mind.  But instead I lost 76. Got one pound away from goal when the holidays hit and I started having a rough time of it.  Add my grandfathers passing and food became my companion of comfort. 

So today I am 12 pounds away from goal.  And I am ok with that.  I went to the center today where by luck my leader was working in her office.  So instead of attending the meeting she just weighed me in (I only gained 1 pound over Christmas!) and then we sat in her office and chatted for an hour.  She told me about the new program they are kicking off next week and showed me some of the material.  I am really looking forward to it.

So tonight we are off to a NYE party where I plan to have fun and enjoy myself and wake up tomorrow ready to conquer these last 12 pounds.  I hope everyone has fun tonight regardless of what you are doing and remember not to drink and drive as I want to see all you guys next year!!!

The weight loss is still happening but it has slowed down to a normal rate now.  I am glad to see the water retention is gone.  Of course it will be back Thursday after I drink tomorrow night! LOL!!  I will be eating on track and staying away from the snacks but I do plan on a few frosty ones and a cold glass of champagne at midnight.

Cold weather is moving back in so no more afternoon walks.  I will have to get on some of my equipment at the house instead.  I still would like to find a good gym to join but I dont see it happening as we dont have any good gyms close to me.  There is the Curves close to my office but the parking is terrible because its downtown.  I would have to meter park and drive around until a slot opened up.  And to be honest I am not much of a parallel parker.

I have been seeing alot of people joining challenges and such.  How does one go about finding one to join?  Would going the forum help me?  I would like to get more involved so that I can stay on track.  I am such a planner, giving me something to strive for would be right up my ally.  Plus it keeps me accountable.  Any advice/info would be appreciated.

Wish my luck!  Tomorrow is my first weigh-in in two weeks.  I have to go to the WW’s center instead of my usual small group across the street from my office.  I have heard the women out there are not as nice as the leaders in my regular group so I’m not sure I will stay for the meeting or not. 

Thats my best Cookie Monster impersonation!

I have some leftover no bake oatmeal cookies in my deep freezer that are screaming my name!!

This afternoon I came in from my walk and I wanted one so badly.  But it was almost supper time and I told myself I could wait until I ate.  But then after supper I told myself I had just eaten so I could wait.  So just now myself said it was time for that cookie I was promised.  So I went and got a 100 calorie cupcake pack and a cup of applesauce.

So no splurge for me!  Funny how we can trick our brains into something to avoid a binge.  If I had opened that bag of cookies I would have not stopped with one.  So if tricking myself into thinking I can have one later will stop me from ruining my perfect day then I will keep it up!!  Just goes to show ya how much our brains play into bad choices and overeating.  So much more than our stomachs.  No wonder we have such terrible times staying on track.

So I am putting my cookie monster to bed for the night and maybe he wont show back up tomorrow.  It will be his last chance to come out as the cookies are leaving for good New Years Eve (they will be attending a party) and Cookie wont have anything around here to crave!

And just a quick report that the scales continue to go down.  That will make weigh in go alot better Wednesday and give me the strength to continue.  I am still above goal but I will be there soon! 

And even though he doesn’t read this I want to tell the best thing that ever happened to me how much I love him, today more than ever!  Happy Anniversay Sweetheart!!

Good news!  It looks like alot of that extra weight was fluid retention because the scales are now 8 pounds lighter!!!  I knew I had eaten alot but to have gained that much would mean I never stopped eating, even to sleep! LOL!!

So of course that has inspired me to stay on program and continue to eat right.   Even though Tom and I will celebrate our 4 year anniversary tomorrow we have decided not to go out to eat to celebrate. He shows a gain of 7 pounds that he wants to get back off so this year we are giving each other the gift health instead of fatty foods.  I’m just gonna cook us a very nice but very healthy dinner instead.

Not much to report in I guess, I just had to share the good news about the scales.  I am still working on getting my house back in order and getting my Christmas stuff taken down.  I am glad I get off Thursday because I am gonna need it to get everything packed up.  Thats the one part of Christmas that I dislike…taking it all down.  How depressing it is knowing I wont see that stuff for another year.

Oh well, I am already looking forward to spring and nice weather again!

Hey guys, I am back again.  All the family has left to go home and now I am left with the mess and destruction it the wake!  LOL!!

No, actually its very quiet around here and I miss them terribly.  The house is not that bad but I am glad for dirty clothes and dishes just so I have something to keep me busy until I head back to work Monday.  Its good to know I will see them again in March when they come home for a visit but its sure hard to tell your big sis goodbye for any amount of time when I see her so little as it is.  But we had a really great Christmas and I am thankful for that.

What I am not thankful for?  Almost 20 extra pounds.  Yes, you did not misread that…I said 20.

I am not really sure its all *true* weight as that means I gained almost 11 pounds in one week.  But I am not gonna lie to you, I ate…alot.  Everything we did had to do with food and more of it.  My stomach has been so sick because of all the rich and fattening foods.  I have steadily been gaining since Thanksgiving so that means 18 pounds in a month.  That makes me sounds like a complete and total pig.

But I did it and cant do anything about it now but get back on track and lose it.  It does make me mad some that I allowed myself to go so nuts over a holiday but with my grandfather passing the stress level was double timing me.  I am really looking forward to the new year so that I can once and for all get to goal.  And to think I was only 1 pound away before Thanksgiving.  If I hadnt played around so much during the fall months I would have been at goal by the first of October.

But again, I am not gonna dwell on all that now because it wont do me a bit of good.  So I am putting on my chaps, grabbing the reins and getting back in the saddle again.  January and February are long, cold boring months around here and I can easily be at goal by Valentines Day or shortly there after.  I have got to set myself some exericse goals and stick with them and not play around anymore. 

My sis will be home on March 6th and I plan to have this all off plus maybe 5 more so that I can have a little leeway when she comes in, in case we go out to eat or something like that.  And even though I know we are just starting our winter season here in the deep south I am already looking forward to spring and getting back outside for my walks.

Hope everyone is still in the Christmas spirit and enjoying themselves! 

I want to send Merry Christmas wishes out to all my buddies!! 

I pray for good wishes and peace to everyone out there.  See you guys very soon!

Hi to my buddies that I have let down.  I am so sorry I havent been around here in almost a month, its not been a good start to the holiday season for me and I just havent felt like blogging much.

Thanksgiving was a complete and total pigfest just as I was afraid.  But I rebounded and got back on the wagon and was going strong.  Then I lost my grandfather.

He was 95.  But it was completely unexpected and really rocked my family.  My sister and family had to make a quick trip home for the funeral.  And with funerals, there was comfort food.  And yes, I did eat it.  Alot of it.  I have always been a stress eater and this was a bad case of stress.

I have been estranged from my biological father for over 20 years.  This was his father that died.  I have always remained close to my grandparents but dont care a toot about what I loving refer to as my sperm donor.  So lets throw having to see him, be nice to him and put on a front for all the rest of the family and friends and see what kinda stress that causes! 

After it was all over with and life was suppose to return back to normal, it didnt.  Stress at work after being off for a week, stress with my family leaving and getting the house back in order for them to come back home this Friday, stress of my grandmother wanting me with her 24/7 and refusing to understand that I cant.  And now the sperm donor wants to go shake up our Christmas plans just because he is a selfish ass who cares about no one other than himself.  Yup, on top of all this I have to pretend some sort of Christmas kindness and see him this again this year.

We have always had Christmas eve with my grandparents.  He never shows which is fine by all us of, except my grandmother.  So in his grief I guess he agreed to show up this year.  But he wants us to have Christmas on Christmas Day this year.  He is trying to play it up that the reason is because we never have Christmas on the actual day.  Ok, two things here.  First, he never has Christmas with us…ever.  So shut up about when we (as in NOT YOU) celebrate it.  And second, the only reason he wants to change it is because his wife’s family is getting together on Christmas Eve and he wants to go spend it with them.  Then by all means PLEASE DO!

But of course my grandmother sees us (my older sister and I) as being unwilling to make this happen and in turn we look like the bad guys.  But I said I will not spend Christmas day with him, I dont care how much my grandmother tries to guilt us into it and I meant it.  As far as I am concerned his lost his rights to Christmas day when he kicked my mom, my sister and myself out right before Christmas when I was 4 years old.

Stressed?  Just a little.  During my most favorite time of the year.  The tree is not decorated and the house barely is.  My spirit is nil to none and that alone upsets me.  I dont want these sort of Christmas memories to take with me years down the road. 

I am up 5.6 pounds and I really dont want to gain anymore.  I am trying my damnest but its hard gals.  I cant believe I am saying this but I am ready for this month to be over and let the new year begin.