skinnychris

Thank you to my buddies for all the hairy comments!  I am glad to see you guys enjoy my corny sense of humor!  ;-p

I only have a few minutes, we are headed out the door for the night.  But I missed last night so I thought I better catch up!  I was so completely beat by the time I got in from work that I crashed on the couch and then went to bed at 8:30.  End of the month (what I love to refer as my TOM) always means longer hours at the firm and I’ve also been spending any free time I have getting things together for Tom’s party.

Which I am proud to say starts in t-minus 23 hours 5 minutes and I have managed to keep it a surprise!!!!!  I know there is still a chance of a leak but he will be gone most of the day tomorrow so he shouldnt run into anyone and I threatened everybody I could to NOT call him.

I got everything bought today and have it stored for safe keeping at my mom’s.  I will spend all morning and half the afternoon tomorrow cooking and decorating and running back and forth between the two.  I have to get up super early tomorrow to finish last minute end of month stuff for the firm so I will be hitting the ground running.  I was so excited today seeing everything come together that I had to do a little dance in my office in front of two of my co-workers!  In fact one of them was the one who pegged me a Crusty Christy.   Now I am Crazy Christy!

I’ve got a long weekend ahead of me.  Nothing but food, food and more food.  As I thought we are having lunch at Tom’s moms Sunday.  Did I mention she was a cook her entire life?  Yeah, lots of good ol country eat’ns!  And in all the excitement of getting ready for Tom’s party, I totally forgot we have a Super Bowl party to go to Sunday afternoon! So I have had to push my back on track kick off date to Monday.  Sorry, I know that sounds like a cop-out but its not.  Its for the sake of my own sanity!!

Oops, Tom is out of the shower!  I probably wont see you guys until Monday, I really hope you all have a GREAT weekend and whoever you are rooting for in the Super Bowl, I hope they win!!!

Thank you guys for the comments about my hairy lip issue!  Yall really made me laugh.  And thanks to LisaMarie, yes dear I will be taking your advice and getting my girl here in town to do the waxing from now on.  What in the world was I thinking? 

And I really cracked myself up when I went back and read what I wrote.  300 billion little hairs? Good Lord, I made myself sound like a sasquatch!!!  Gooney Goo Goo!

I woke up this morning to a very sore and very scabby upper lip.  The scabs are HUGE!  And of course no amount of makeup would cover them (it warmed up overnight and my ice melted so I had to go to work).  In fact it made me look like I had a 5:00 shadow.  Thanks goodness I didnt have any meetings today, I mainly stayed holed up in my office.  But a good friend of mine saw it and loving nicknamed me Crusty Christy.  Gotta love it!  I hope its gone by Saturday.  I really dont need all my friends seeing it at Tom’s birthday party.  I would never live it down.

Now to the weight loss…or should I say gain?  I am showing 1 pound up right now.   Thats cool, what can I expect after a birthday weekend?  And I still have this weekend to go.  If I can get thru it with only a gain of another pound or two I will be ok with it all.  But Sunday, Feb. 1st….IT IS ON!!  I am sure Tom’s mother is gonna invite us over for his birthday lunch but somehow I’ve got to be good.  That will leave me 5 weeks to lose 10 pounds.  I can so totally do it but I gotta get my mind in it.  And somehow cut out this appetite I have raging.  I really think its this nasty cold weather affecting me because it seems to be happening to alot of you guys too.  I need some heat and sun damnit!!

Not sure if I am going to my last meeting tomorrow or not.  I have a sneaking feeling our old leader will there, all whining and I dont want to hear it.  I still havent decided what I will do long term either as far as attending the meetings.  But I just dont want anymore of their drama.

As I posted earlier today, the weather is icy and nasty here.  So I have been stuck at home all day long and about to go out of my mind.  And to make matters worse, in the middle of posting booster notes to all my buddies my computer cord overheated and shut my computer down.  No computer??  Talk about going nuts.

So what do I do?  I decide to go pull out my Sally Hansen’s “Wax Your Hairy Upper Lip” kit that I bought years ago but never used.  It was time to remove the fuzz.  (ok, I did mention how bored I was, right?).  So I clip out some strips and heat them between my hands as it says.  Apply, rub again, give it a sec and then pull. 

HOLY SHITAKE BATMAN!!  No where did it say it was gonna remove the top 3 layers of my skin!  I thought at first it was just raw from ripping 300 billon tiny hairs from my upper lip.  I even rubbed some witch hazel on it and came back into the living room.  But then it felt wet.  So I touched it and it was oozing clear fluid.  Like a burn!

So you should see me tonight.  I look like someone took a red Sharpie and drew one of those French style cartoon mustaches on me!  Tom wanted Subway tonight and I went with him to get it but refused to get out of the truck.  Damnit, it better ice 20 inches tonight because there is no way in hell I am going to work tomorrow looking like this!

So ladies if its snowing and icing there.., post here, read a book, exercise, call your mom.  But for God’s sake, DO NOT wax your upper lip!

This has been a public service announcement from your buddy Christy.

I HATE icy weather.  I wish if its gonna be this nasty it would be snow instead.  So I’m working from home today and stuck inside.  With food.

Its getting close to lunch and I plan on a chicken club panini Lean Cuisine.  But can I hold to that resolve?  I got up this morning wondering what today would hold.  Its just not a good thing for me to be stuck here.  And it will be a repeat tomorrow because the worst of it hasnt even gotten here yet.

I did eat a small piece of cake this morning with a glass of skim milk.  Man was that good! LOL!!  But I am satisfied so I should be able to stay out of it now.  But what about all that other stuff in there?

And tell me, why is it so hard to exercise when its cold out?  I could be up doing just about any type of exercise right now…but I’m not.  I just dont have it in me.  Man, I am so ready for spring if all we are gonna get is ice.  Atleast if it was snow I could go play in it.  I hear ya burn alot of calories playing around in thick snow.

Right now I am holding tough.  I keep telling myself how good I look in my small clothes, especially those size 10 jeans I bought on sale at Sears Saturday night.  I still want to be able to wear them after all the birthday celebrations and ice storms!  I dont get it, I’M NOT EVEN HUNGRY!!  So why is that all I can think about?  Maybe I need to pretend I am depriving myself of exercise and then it will make me crave it so badly I will get up and do it to spite myself!  :-p

Hi my buddies!  I have pretty much been MIA since my breakdown Thursday night.  We started celebrating my birthday Friday so its been downhill since then.  I have no regrets except I hear my scales creaking under all the extra weigh I am putting on them!

Nah, I dont think its been that bad but I am taking Nancy’s advice and staying off of them.  Give my body a few days to balance everything out.  I ate, drank and partied like a rock star!  And considering I am 38 now that means I ate something without fiber, drank a few beers and was in bed by 9! LOL!!

But my parents took us out for Mexican (my fave) and my mom made us a red velvet cake.  This was for both mine and Tom’s birthdays.  So I am have eaten myself into a stupor.  I have not slept well and my stomach is beyond repair.  Why do we have to celebrate special occasions with food?  Dont get me wrong, I really enjoyed it but I know I am gonna pay when I get on the scales Thursday.  One good thing about it, I wont let it get out of control.  I’ll just take it right back off.  Thats what its all about, right?

I even got up this morning with my good intentions but was surprised at work with a homemade strawberry/cream cheese cake!  OMG!  How can I say no?  My best friend made it for me?  She just bought and moved into her house this weekend but took time to bake me a cake!  It was hopeless!

Now we are expecting a major ice storm here starting later tonight.  I just cant catch a break.  We do have a generator but its hard to cook much of anything because we cant pull more than one burner at a time on the stove.  And forget the microwave if we want heat.  And if we get any ice at all its a given we will lose power because we are so rural here.  But I’m not giving up!  I still have to get thru Tom’s surprise party Saturday night so I’ll be hitting it hard after that.  My sis comes home again on March 6th and I will have lost 10 pounds by then. Just watch me! 

I am still upset about my meeting but trying not to think about it too much right now.  Thursday is just gonna be horrible, that is if we are able to even have a meeting (the weather).  I still have not decided if I will be attending a meeting somewhere else or not.  Funny, I had a dream the other night after I posted here about the whole thing.  And in my dream I was able to tell a few people what I thought about it all.  And even though it was a dream, I really felt alot better after I woke up.  Guess it was my way of venting.

Thanks to all my buddies who supported me that night.  For some reason alot of your comments went into moderation (WHAT is up with that anyway?  If we are members why do they get flagged as spam?) and I just caught them tonight.  I am sorry about that.  I love to hear from you guys and I was really thrilled to see your support.  I knew you guys would understand. 

Here is to a better week for all of us.  Now would someone PLEASE remove all these cakes from my house?!?!?!?!

I have not been a very good buddy lately. I am checking in but not posting much. I want my buddies to know I am still here for you, but when you guys are praising me when I dont deserve, it just makes me ashamed to be here. 

I got my physical yesterday.  The doc was thrilled.  She went on and on about my weight loss and I thought she was gonna start asking me for advice!  It really pumped me up.  Until I got home.  I dont know what happened but I gave in.  And I ate, and ate and ate.  My doc is very thorough so she took around a gallon of blood. I swear, I stopped bleeding halfway thru so they had to massage my arm to get it going again.  And for some reason my blood pressure was low (which was great news to me) but I guess between the two it really hit me.  When I got up out of my chair last night to head to bed I almost fell into our big screen.  And I woke up this morning even more dizzy.  Talk about a drunk but without the booze.

Felt like hell all morning but I ate some sugar thinking my sugar levels were too low.  Nope, not it.  So it had to be from the blood loss.  After a horrible weigh in (up 1.6 pounds) I went out and ate and real burger. Not a fast food one, a real beef one. Almost rare, I hate bloody meat but I knew I had too.  Within a few hours the dizziness was better.  It has been awhile since I ate red meat so I guess I need to up my iron supplement.

But of course that has set up the night and here I am.  I just ate garlic cheddar bread sticks (with ranch dressing!).  Guys, I am so upset.  They are closing our meeting.  And I want to talk about it tonight but I have already written a book and I think talking about it will just make me run to the fridge anyway.  So I think I am gonna write a letter to not only the local franchise but to international too.

Sorry buddies, I just dont have it in me tonight. I am sorry for not holding up my end of the buddy deal.  I swear I will come back and I still support you big time.  But losing my group is like losing all of you guys.  We have been together thru so much and it wasnt right to have to say goodbye.  Its just not fair.

I have decided its the cold weather.  When we have a warm day I am exploding with energy.  I am all pumped up, ready to eat right and exercise.  But these cold, gray days…well they are just killing me.  I didnt splurge today (even though I wanted too) but I didnt exercise either.  I come in from work, do some chores until supper, eat and then watch tv. And I have even been crashing earlier.  Dont get me wrong, I love winter time.  But for some reason this winter is messing me up. 

Gotta go to the girlie doc in the morning.  This is the doctor who called me fat on my last visit to her.  That was Dec. 07, before I started WW’s.  I wonder what she will say tomorrow?  It better not be anything close to the word fat.  I know I am still not at goal but I dont need anything but positive from her or while she is down there in my nether regions digging around I just might kick her in the face.  She’s lucky I didnt do it last time!

I guess Thursday will really be my last meeting at my WW’s group.  And guys, that is another issue with my mood.  I am very disenchanted.  I am so upset with this franchise.  I still cannot believe they are going to close down our meeting.  Yes I *can* drive out to the center, but I cant be sure I am gonna see my friends anymore.  I have gotten very close to alot of these women.  We have laughed together, struggled, cried and cheered each other on.  But we have always been there for each other.  Sure cant say the same about Weight Watchers. 

I’m not quitting.  This is the only diet I know I can do and not give up on.  Because they arent a diet to me.  But I’m not sure I can keep giving those ungrateful asses my hard earned money.  It is like they have forgotten why they exist.  And I know this is a factor in my desire to binge because right now just talking about it is making me want to go eat.  It is breaking my heart. 

And I want to say I dont feel this way about WW’s as a whole, just the franchise that is in my part of my state.  I wish like hell someone from international would come in and clean house.  Its a peyton place I am beginning to think.  I still think WW’s is great and dont regret chosing them at all.  I just wish things were like they used to be.

I’m off to watch The Biggest Loser.  Have a great night buddies!!

I hit the door this afternoon starving!  But I forced away any binging and started on Tom’s supper.  He has been begging me for a big ol pot of homemade veggie beef soup.  So I started on it to occupy myself.  I cant stand the stuff, can you believe that?  I know I could eat a ton of it and still be eating low points but its just not for me.   I’m not a huge veggie fan to start off with but when they are all mixed up together like that, it just yucks me out!

So I finally settled on a 2 point 100 calorie snack pack of Lays crackers.  The overpowering craving to eat everything in sight has passed…for now.  Wonder why certain days are such a struggle?  I am even trying to incorporate the new filling foods into my diet but it seems like that makes me more hungry.  Does anyone else find when they up their intake of fiber it increases their appetite?  I can eat a bag of popcorn and be starving an hour later, I mean literally hear my stomach growling.  I dont get it.  I ate brocolli with both my breakfast and lunch today and was hungrier than a bear by 4 pm.  I wont be doing that tomorrow.

I am gonna attempt to get on my exericse bike tonight.  I just hate that thing!  But my elliptical is squeaking like crazy and I hate to use it uless I am home alone.  Tom is gonna have to take it apart again and find the joint making the noise.  I know you have to grease them as you go along but it gets to be a hassle. 

I really need to quit being negative.  I think I will be ok once I eat.  Hunger makes ya mean I think!

I think my willpwer has returned…I guess I just needed to bitch for awhile~

Hello my buddies!  I hope you all have had a great weekend!!  There are so many blogs out there I want to respond to and I will, it always takes me a few days to catch up after the weekend.  After doing all my household stuff, tending to my folks and now my grandmother I dont have alot of down time.  But Mondays always bring back to routine and I will catch up with ya. *wink*

Speaking of grandmother, drum roll…SHE WON!!!  The sperm donor backed down and gave in!!!  He sucked it up and stopped his freeze out.  No, he did not say he was sorry, no he didnt even act like there was a problem but he finally came back and tended to her and helped her and even took her out to dinner….TWICE!!  In fact as he left last night he hugged her neck and told her he loved her.  I am SOOO proud of her for standing her ground.  I know it almost killed her but she did the right thing.  I did a little dance for her today (ok, it was my corny white girl dance) but she loved it and danced a little with me!  After 64 years of his life FINALLY someone got thru to him.  And for all of your prayers, good thoughts and wishes, I thank you!!!!

And of course she was in a GREAT mood!  My birthday is the 25th and Tom’s is the 1st so she wanted to know if she could take us to lunch today.  She said Chinese.  I never had a chance.  That is Tom’s fave food.  So off we went and let me tell ya buddies, I ate like a pig. And you know what?  I dont care.  I dont mind.  I had so much fun!  We laughed and for once since my grandfather died, we didnt cry.  We talked about him of course but we did it laughing.  And that made my entire day. We had SOOO much fun.  I have totally blown it today and I dont mind.  For the first time since Popie died I was able to leave their house seeing my grandmother smile and not cry.  It was great!

With our birthdays coming up, I know I’m not gonna be great on the scales.  We have dinners and cakes to endure.  I am throwing Tom a surprise party on the 31st.  And you know, I am not stressing over them.  If I only do as good as a maintain, I am fine with that.  I loving life, I am loving things just being ok.  And I am ok with that!!

For once in a long time I am seeing blue skies ahead of me.  Carolina gets her stitches out this week, no signs of infection and she is doing great herself.  So pardon me if I do more of my corny white chick dance.  Please dance with me, I wont make fun of you if you wont make fun of me!!  >-:-}

You guys are truly the GREATEST group of folks ever!  I came in from work late yesterday afternoon to find my email and booster note boxes were about to blow up with your awesome words and heartfelt thoughts!  Yesterday was such an extremely long day for me (nothing resolved about the accounting chick refusing to do her job) but I tried to make the most of it and kept a smile on my face.  And then to come home to this place! Thank you ALL so much, you really made my day.

But sorry I didnt get on last night and send my love, I had to get up at 3 this morning for work so after I cooked supper I climbed into Tom’s recliner and passed out.  When I know I have to get up like I did I normally dont sleep well, thinking I am gonna oversleep or something so I just sleep when I can.  I did get up and get my part…and yes her part done too.  Went and crawled back into the bed around 7 and slept for a few hours.  Tom and I had to run to Sam’s today so not much resting.  But we ran by Gander Mountain (Its kinda like Bass Pro) and I guess luck was on my side.  I found a pair of Hi-Tec adventure/outdoor all terrain tennis shoes.  They are normally 75 bucks +, I got them on sale for 12 bucks!!!  They look like a low quarter hiking boot.  And I LOVE them.  This means no more having to stay on pavement while walking.  I can get out and start exploring and be comfortable.  And man are they comfortable!

But I have a problem.  I had to run out to the WW’s center yesterday and see my old leader.  She informed me they are closing our meeting after Thursday. Said there just arent enough people participating which I dont understand.  There was 16 people there Thursday!  But they are opening a closed meeting at DHS 7 blocks away for only 13 people!!  So now I wont have a local meeting to go to.  So its either leave work and drive 20 minutes to the center for an hour and then drive back another 20 minutes to work.  Thats almost 2 hours.  Which I can do, since I am salary I dont have to worry about taking long lunches but I really dont have the time, period. 

I dont know what I am gonna do.  I am really put out by the whole darn thing.  Another reason why I hate this franchise of WW’s.  To them its all about the bottom line, not support.  My meeting does not cost them a dime.  So if only 1 person was there would that not be reason enough to keep it open?  I so wish it was WW’s International in this area. 

I’ve gotta jet, Saturdays and Sundays are crazing around here for me.  Too much to do in two days.  Hope everyone is having a great weekend!!!  See ya soon.