Just a really, really bad day :-(
I have not been a very good buddy lately. I am checking in but not posting much. I want my buddies to know I am still here for you, but when you guys are praising me when I dont deserve, it just makes me ashamed to be here.
I got my physical yesterday. The doc was thrilled. She went on and on about my weight loss and I thought she was gonna start asking me for advice! It really pumped me up. Until I got home. I dont know what happened but I gave in. And I ate, and ate and ate. My doc is very thorough so she took around a gallon of blood. I swear, I stopped bleeding halfway thru so they had to massage my arm to get it going again. And for some reason my blood pressure was low (which was great news to me) but I guess between the two it really hit me. When I got up out of my chair last night to head to bed I almost fell into our big screen. And I woke up this morning even more dizzy. Talk about a drunk but without the booze.
Felt like hell all morning but I ate some sugar thinking my sugar levels were too low. Nope, not it. So it had to be from the blood loss. After a horrible weigh in (up 1.6 pounds) I went out and ate and real burger. Not a fast food one, a real beef one. Almost rare, I hate bloody meat but I knew I had too. Within a few hours the dizziness was better. It has been awhile since I ate red meat so I guess I need to up my iron supplement.
But of course that has set up the night and here I am. I just ate garlic cheddar bread sticks (with ranch dressing!). Guys, I am so upset. They are closing our meeting. And I want to talk about it tonight but I have already written a book and I think talking about it will just make me run to the fridge anyway. So I think I am gonna write a letter to not only the local franchise but to international too.
Sorry buddies, I just dont have it in me tonight. I am sorry for not holding up my end of the buddy deal. I swear I will come back and I still support you big time. But losing my group is like losing all of you guys. We have been together thru so much and it wasnt right to have to say goodbye. Its just not fair.
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Chris, it’s okay we all have those days where we just aren’t ourselves ! I think you felt a loss and people deal with a loss in different ways ! Here for you any time ! Hugs, kimmi
Okay, this is my second time trying to post you a comment ! Hopefully it won’t disappear this time! We all have bad days and we all deal with it differently ! Hold your head high ! Here for you any time ! Hugs, kimmi
Hey we all have days like this…keep going!
It’s ok girl! I understand your struggle all too well! Hang in there. The day is over. Tomorrow start fresh. OK? BIG HUG!!!!
I had a bad day today, also. I just felt Hungry all day or was I just bored. Any way I ate 400 calories more that I should have today. Shame on me! I think it also had something to do with the yo-yo weigh ins I have been getting this week up 3 lbs down 3 lbs and up again. I just hate when that happens. I get excited and then disapointed.
Hey! Don’t beat yourself up! It sounded as if you needed to eat! Did your Doc tell you that you need to eat a big meal with in two hours after given blood? Mine did, and I didn’t do it so, like you I did the same exact thing. Felt like poo! Anyway, your body needed something because you just gave a lot.
You will get back on track.
Don’t give up!
Thank you guys. You are right, its a huge loss to me. Those ladies have been a part of my life for over a year now and now it looks like I may not see any of them for a long time. I am better mentally, but of course thats because I celebrated my birthday all weekend long! LOL!
Kelly, no my doc didnt say anything to me. In fact once they took my blood they let me go without any sort of warning.
Thank you guys. You are right, its a huge loss to me. Those ladies have been a part of my life for over a year now and now it looks like I may not see any of them for a long time. I am better mentally, but of course thats because I celebrated my birthday all weekend long! LOL!
Kelly, no my doc didnt say anything to me. In fact once they took my blood they let me go without any sort of warning. I finally did get to feeling better Friday. But remind me of this next year!!!
Ok, so that posted twice! Oops!
Why are they closing your mttg, I must have missed that one?