skinnychris

Wow, I remember now why I dont like taking long weekends off.  I can barely go the next day back at work.  Plus it doesnt help me at all that I sit in a cold, dark room for 8 hours a day with no sunlight.  I mean none at all.  If I want to see sun I have to go downstairs.  I do get out when I go to the gym but then I come back and eat lunch and get extremely tired after that.  And today I am feeling it.  I have yet to make it out on my bike ride and something is telling me I wont.  I think instead I’ll get on the elliptical tonight.  I just dont feel like loading up my bike, driving to the river, unloading and then dealing with the traffic down there.  I know, it sounds like a bunch of excuses and I’m not denying it.  They are, but I am just too tired to do it today. 

Ok guys, so what do you have planned for this weekend?  I really didnt think to much about it yesterday.  So we get an extra day off work.  Great!  If it doesnt rain I can get all sorts of stuff done this weekend.  If the garden dries enough I am gonna plant my Big Max pumpkins, some squash, broccoli and sunflowers.  About the only things I can do this late in the season.  And I really, really want to get the pool open.  But its yet to feel Memorial Day/Summertime around here for me.  It was 45 here this morning!  Last year it was hotter than hell at this time!  Crazy weather!

Anyway, back to this weekend. Guess what I found out?  We have cookouts to attend, starting Friday night.  I *might* be able to get around that one.  We wouldnt go over until later and I will be too hungry to wait to eat.  So I can eat at home and take a huge diet Coke with me to drink. I will be too tired from working so the party scene wont be happening that night for me.  But then we have not only Saturday and Sunday to get thru but they have to go and give us Monday too!  More food, to die for grilling and BBQ and lets not forget BEER!  What is Memorial Day without a cold one!?  ARRRGGHHH!!

And to make matters worse I will be going in this week to my meeting with a gain (up two pounds it seems).  Totally expected due to my fiesta Sunday but I didnt count that in when I figured Fathers Day to be my goal date.  So that probably wont happen afterall.  I’ll see what really does happen Thursday and if the goal cant be met as I thought, I’m not gonna be super disciplined this weekend.  Not that I plan on eating the entire pig or cow or whatever is on the grill but you know what I mean.  I wont be packing my own meal or turning down a cold one.  We will just have to see.  But let me state this is NOT a cop out or break from my diet.  Instead I will just enjoy the weekend for what it is.  I found out earlier this year if I put to much pressure on myself to be perfect or to be at a certain weight by a certain time (thats not reasonable) I will crack and binge.  None of that this time.  I am finally losing again and getting too close to goal to OCD myself to death with an unreasonable goal.  So anyway, right now I’m just waiting on Thursday and will take it from there!

I know its still a few months (and many scorching days) away but I am already looking forward to Fall!  I think its the pumpkin talk doing it to me.  Its my favorite season and this year I know I will be at my goal weight when we take pictures at Thanksgiving.  Summer will be long and hot but there is always a reward at the end. 

Ok, I am doing it again…talking thru my fingers about mindless stuff!  I’m gonna get off here and go cook supper.  Believe it or not blogging about being tired has made me feel better.  Maybe I just needed some sun and a little bit to rest.  I think I feel a itch coming on and it needs to be scratched by some sweating! LOL!! Come on and join me!!