Is it even possible to lose .1 of a pound?
Because I did. Seriously, I think it had to do with changing scales. Our digital scales are a POS so we decided to retire them. We dragged the doctor scales back out and thats what it showed. Last week I weighed 177.6, today 177.5. So in other words, I maintained!! Not complaining one bit since I know what I put in my body over the weekend. So WOOT for me!
But now to the complaining. I hurt my knee today at the gym. And now I am in a very foul mood. Let me do some ’splaining. Years ago, 2002 I think it was, I was moving. Another move during my divorce so it wasnt a good time to start off with. I was pitching and pulling clothes out of my closet deciding what to keep and what to throw away. It just so happens a suede skirt landed at the top of my staircase. Yup, I did it. Without thinking I started down the stairs, stepped on the skirt in sock feet. It slid underneath me and caused me to start slidding. Down the stairs I went. And when I finally landed my right leg was twisted behind me in a very bad position. I didnt go to the ER as I had no insurance but I did get in to see my PCP the next morning. But again, with no insurance I couldnt afford x-rays and the MRI he wanted to do. So instead I landed on crutches for a few weeks, a huge knee and alot of bruising.
But because of that alone I have had to be very careful with my knee. I have never been able to fully extend it out like I used to be able to do. The pain would stop me dead in my tracks if I did. But for some reason today, probably because I was talking to the trainer and not paying attention I over extended on the leg press machine and instantly knew I had capital letter F’d up! The pain hit, ran all the way down my leg and settled in my ankle.
I was able to walk out, semi grin on my face and limp to my car. Now I am just hurting. Ice and a hot soak in the bath and still hurting. More ice coming up. But that is NOT how I wanted to end my 30 days with Curves.
And of course because I overthink and rethink (remember ruminating?) everything in my life I am totally stressing over this weekend. I wont be able to make my Fathers Day goal. I’m ok with that, really I am. But of course it sets the stage of “why not go ahead and have fun this weekend” instead of thinking “I need to keep it in check this weekend”. Something tells me no matter how much I ruminate over it I’m gonna end up eating. And drinking. But ya know what? Thats ok too. I am human right? And just because I do eat and drink this weekend it doesnt mean I am a failure or blowing it, right? Then would you PLEASE tell my brain that because I am already beating myself up and I havent done anything yet!!! >:-[
I think my biggest problem today is my knee. I know for alot of folks this will make no sense. But to have this pop up now…well it takes me back mentally to my divorce and what I went thru. How my ex cancelled my health insurance to be an ass and hurt me. And it did. And still years later it is still hurting me because I have an injury that could have been taken care of back then. I know my divorced buddies can understand where I am coming from. Debbi, Nancy? You know what I mean. The physical hurt may go away but it only takes one thing to undo us mentally. One reminder and it knocks the wind right out of your sails. And then I even get more mad for letting this all come rushing back to me.
*sigh*. I gotta stop this now before I blame my ex for the state of the country and the gas prices going back up.
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YOU ARE RIGHT, you ARE human, and even once you reach your weight goal, you still are going to be human, and you are still going to be able to have fun, drink, and eat badly every now and then. life is not ABOUT denying what you like, its about balancing everything in a healthy way.
in all aspects of life!
great job maintaining, the scale could have gone in the wrong direction
sorry about your knee tho!
Oh let’s just blame him!! I so know what you mean hon. Even though I have been happily married for the last 8 years, sometimes there is a stupid little thing that will take me to think about my ex and will destroy my mood for days. I think that is very human. About the eating… why couldn’t you eat or drink. Just try and use some moderation but by all means.. its a holiday girl.. so its party time! Its not like its like that every week! And hey! Congrats on the 0.1! LOL nah in all seriousness, maintaining is great too! So you take care and keep icing that knee! Do you have insurance now to have a closer look at the knee?
Cringes on the knee injury! So sorry–I know how much they can hurt. I almost told ya to see a doctor but then that would be telling you one thing and doing another for myself lol.
As for the food and drinking and having fun–girl, its life..gotta have fun too. Otherwise, what’s the point?
That knew sounds sore, hope it starts to get a little better!
As for the maintain, you should be happy, you were expecting a gain (if I remember correctly!?) so you have another chance! lol! And enjoy the family celebrations this weekend, it really is the hardest thing to learn how to control ourselves around food but we have to try because life doesn’t just happened in our own homes where wew can weigh our food and track our calories! Now I suppose I should practice what i preach and not stuff my face with junk every time i leave the house….lol! take care of that knee
From one ruminator to another…lets think this through and talk it over and over
First off a loss is a loss, yes? So good for you!
Secondly…I am SO sorry about your knee…how disappointing…BUT you dont want to make your BUTT any bigger so you will enjoy your food and beer…BUT not OVER ENJOY them…you can do that. I can be an all or nothing girl…ok who am I kidding…I can rule the ALL OR NOTHING Kingdom! But we need to learn moderation…loose the guilt and enjoy.
I also very VERY much understand the issues that stirred from what your injury caused. As a matter of fact been dealing with it quite a bit including ANGER popping out…ummhummmm! Yes it is! Its like you try so Friggin hard to do good things and make the best of crap and you end up getting hurt or paying a price in some form…Adding INJURY to INSULT…am I right? In the words of Randy Jackson…Im feelin ya dawg!
I hope you heal quickly and I will be checkin up on you girl so behave or I will have to take a road trip and find you…Mwahahahahahaha!
HOPE YOU KNEE IS FEELING BETTER SOON AND HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND BUT DONT GO TOO CRAZY!!