skinnychris

Hey buddies!  I have been MIA for a few days, taking a breather and some me time.  Not that time spent here isnt me time but I needed some ‘me not on a diet’ time.  I needed time to not think about dieting all the time like I was starting to do.

But enough of that.  I missed you all and glad to see most are doing well.  As for me, well my title says it all.  After alot of thinking and soul searching I have decided I am ending my friendship with the scales.  He is not doing right by me or me by him so its time to call it quits.  I am tired of his judgmental ways when I havent had a good week.  And he is tired of me having bad weeks.  So goodbye you wishy washy friend!!

So what does that mean?  That means I am going back to Curves tomorrow.  I am signing up and changing my plans from weight loss to healthy living.  I may or may not get those last 10 pounds off.  Maybe not right now, maybe never.  So I am gonna concentrate on inches, strengthing and toning.  I am no longer going to say I am dieting, I am gonna say I am living a healthy lifestyle. 

I have decided I have come too far to let this last 10 pounds beat me down.  So before it does I am gonna beat it.  It is playing with my mind and has me thinking I cant do it.  It has me wanting to binge even when I really dont want too.  I have stopped telling myself no and amazingly, I have stopped wanting.  Instead of coming home after work wanting to empty the fridge I am happy having a healthy snack and waiting on supper.  No more saying no.  If I want it, I’ll have it.  Everything in moderation of course.

So as it stands right now I will be saying goodbye to my WW’s meeting.  I really, really hate doing it.  You probably dont believe me but I do.  But its not working, its not helping.  So I’m taking that money and putting it toward Curves.  Not giving up the program, just the meetings.  I will probably be a point counter for life.  And if I feel myself slipping I will return.  But right now I need to stop letting those scales control my every thought.  And since thats all WW’s goes by I need a break from them too.

I will get my weight and measurements taken again at Curves I am sure.  Or they may go by the ones from 2 weeks ago.  Anyway, that will be the only time I weigh until they weigh and measure me again next month.  No more stressing over a bad weigh in every week. 

With all of this said I’m not gonna stop what I am doing.  I am gonna continue to be healthy and stay healthy.  And if I lose some while I am at it, more better for me!  I sure hope I do and if that 10 pounds seems to find its way off my body…then good-bye to it too!  But when we go on our float trip in two weeks I will not be stressing for days ahead of it like I did the week before Memorial Day weekend.  Its not worth it.  I am gonna go and enjoy myself.  And something tells me I will have more fun because of the lack of stress.

So there it is.  This is the time for me to start loving who I am, who I have become over the past year and a half.  Its nice knowing I will never go back to that.  My resolve is too strong to ever gain that weight back.   And its also nice knowing that if me and my body decide to stay at this weight, well we’ll be fine.  And who knows what I will see in a month down the road!  It will give me something to look forward to!!