skinnychris

Hey buddies!  Another quickie before I head out to the garden.  While jacking around with the pool yesterday afternoon I left the soaker hose on too long and flooded my garden!  So now I’ve got to get out there and repair my damaged pumpkin hills.  All that hard work and I go and screw it up!  Plus I gotta get the pool ready for the storms blowing in later tonight.  Geez, what a mess its gonna be tomorrow.  Bleech!  But atleast I did get to swim last night and it felt sooooo good.  I’ll have to remind myself of that when I have to get out there and clean it up again.  Damn storms!

As my title says, I am feeling really good right now and feeling strong not only physically but mentally too.  Its been a week since I started this new strategy of maintaining and exercising and not so much on the losing.  And its going SOOO good.  I am not starving but I dont feel the need to binge either.  Like yesterday, I wasnt hungry.  So I didnt force myself to eat my points just because I am suppose too.  But today I am starved so I have eaten all of them and probably a few more.  But thats cool!  I think the hunger today came from all the additional exercise I have gotten over the past 3 days working outside.  Its nice to listen to what my body is saying instead of what someone else is saying.  My body knows what it needs and it will let me know.

I think I am also all pumped up because our float trip is next weekend!  Seems like it has gotten here so fast!  I pulled out the suitcase and my bag tonight to start throwing stuff in as I think about it.  As with everything else in my life I am completely OCD with packing and making sure I have everything I need.  I hate being unprepared! LOL!!  I will be the one on the float with a bag of emergency needs, I always am and it always turns out someone needs something.  Ibu’s, Q-Tips, band-aids and neosporin, heartburn relief, I take it all! 

Tomorrow will be my first missed WW’s meeting.  I have debated all week long about going but I finally decided today on the way home that I am not going.  I know I am only going because of my leader.  And I need to be going only for me.  So I wont be there.  I need to email her but I dont know what to say. 

And I have been thinking (why do I do that?!?!?).  I found out last weekend that my 20 year class reunion is coming up the weekend of Sept 1th.  So after the 4th of July I’m probably gonna get serious and see about losing the last 10 pounds.  By then the worst of summer should be over and maybe I will be refocused by then.  If I am, good for me.  If not, then I will keep at what I am doing now.  I refuse to let those last 10 pounds define me or rule me.  So I wont be putting that pressure on me or talking about it much.  But its something I am keeping in the back of my mind.

Ok..gotta scram.  And since its suppose to be nasty out for the next few days I am hoping tomorrow I can sit down and see how everyone is doing!!  I miss you guys and wonder what all is going on.  Hope everyone is being good to themselves!!  Later!