skinnychris

Hey, its your long lost summertime loving buddy!!  We had a wonderful weekend, all sort of bad stuff going on!  Eating, drinking, staying up late and talking about each other…to each others faces! Mwhahahahah!  Nah, it was all in good fun and the only thing I didnt do alot of was sleep!  By the time I got home I was worn out!

The float itself went waaay to quick.  The water was up and rolling and we had to keep stopping on gravel bars so that we didnt end up at the pick up too soon.  So we did alot of playing in the water and it was COLD!  58 degrees!  And when its 100 out that 58 feels even colder on your skin.  All in all it was a great time but I sure wish I could do it again but slow it all down.

Now…what do I need help with?  My afternoon binging.  It has gotten completely out of control.  It has always been a issue with me but now I feel myself slipping into a place I dont want to be.  I get off work at 3:30 normally.  That gets me home 4-4:15.  And Tom doesnt get in most nights until 6.  So that gives me two hours to graze the kitchen until we eat supper.  I had gotten a pretty good handlel on it but not anymore. I hit the door ready to pig out.  And I start off good.  Maybe a high protein granola bar.  But then I move on to something else, and then another and the next thing you know I have used up all my supper points and then some.  And normally I feel sick afterward.

One thing I am gonna try to start doing is eat something right before I leave work.  Maybe that will feel the void in my belly.  Because I am truly hungry.  I’m not sure if the exercise before lunch is causing me to burn up my lunch quicker but normally by the time I get off my belly is growling.  Which is only around 2 and half hours as I eat at 1-1:30.  But I know if I dont get this stopped I am gonna start gaining.  There is no way I can continue to binge and not.

And thats another thing. Even though *I know* that eating like that is gonna make me gain, it doesnt stop me.  So what is wrong with my brain?!?!?

But besides that I do great during the rest of the day.  I’m fine in the mornings, during the day and even late at night.  But those damn afternoons!  I’ve even thought about going to the gym after work instead of at lunch but technically the gym doesnt open until 4 in the afternoons.  I can get in but I dont feel comfortable doing that, if something came up missing or torn up, fingers would point at me.

So any advice you guys have would be more than greatly appreciated.  I am at my wits end, I know I am the only one who can stop it but I seem to be forgetting how!